Did I.... or am I!?

Did I or am I I really don't know.

Life .... hard or not hard? Questions Questions Questions. Life is one big 'question' Have you done this today, did you do that right today, have your forgotten something, Questions Questions Questions.....

But have you got the answer??? A majority of the time i don't think I have the answer or the question so I trot along in life thinking and hoping, i'm going to make the right decisions. Up to now I think I may have been right in the decisions I have made but i'm sure some people will say that I'm not right.

Take for instance my relationship of secret ... is that the right decision. I think sometimes no and then days I think yes it is the right thing to be doing. I care for him very much, we enjoy each other company and at times I think yes we are right together but then I get this jolt in my stomach to say NO .... this is not what you should be doing .... he belongs to another! Then I think yes but he isn't happy, I make him happy, we have fun together we do things with go to places we enjoy lovely food and wine, and we laugh.

Laughing .... that's good therapy .... its good to the stomach muscles to keep fit and believe me I need to keep them fit! so much for joining a gym and spending £40.00 a month for just having a gym card membership in my purse. USE IT! .... I'm sure I will in the new year .... lets get christmas out of the way and then it will be worth it .... let have a health body next year ..... yes and how many times have i said that one eh! Every year for about the past 5 years! But yes next year will be my year ..... keep your fingers cross for me .....