2009, February already, has anything exciting happened has anything interesting happened? Probably not I didn't and haven't really notice anything ..... changes.

No changes at all really we just carry on and go with the flow and we all say that we are going to make changes when it's a new year, so do we really do it? If I'm honest I am more than likely still doing the same things I was doing this time last year, but I'm ment to be one year wiser and older and that we have learnt by the mistakes that have been made. Again I don't really know.

My 'friend' came back to work this week after being off work for nearly three months. It was amazing ....we've been in constant contact in those three months and it made me realise alot. We only got to see each other twice in that time, and my what a change it has made to our relationship. Its moving to the next level and I think this is where it will start to get very messy in deed. As you know this is all very secret and has to be secret, not a good situation to be in but is the best of the situation at the moment.
I was out last night with friends, I enjoyed but they all had partners with them and me I don't, according to them I haven't had a partner for nearly 2 years, which is fine as it's my choice but when I know I do have a sort of partner but can't say then thats the difficult bit. I'd love to be able to come out and say hey guess what I do have someone and we are very happy but I can't. The big question is when will it come out and I wonder what the reaction will be from all.
Again this is something I think of alot at the moment, I'm sure some of my friends will not be happy. I can hear the reaction from them now .... but do I want people with bad reactions to our relationship around me? I know I'm probably to blame alittle bit for not saying but hey I can't say and is for that reason that I maybe don't trust what their reaction will be??